No... I speak of the reason I had to fight in that war for. [ A sigh escapes her lips. ] How do I even begin to explain...

[ Eventually though, she does find the courage to recap this for Xion. Minus all of Shirou's crappy realizations. ]

That is why... why I wish to be forgotten. I thought if I acquired the Holy Grail that I could have made a wish for a better king for Britain and that I could have just never existed.